not a good day.....

talked to the HQ from the pet hospital, and she basically told me what I didnt want to accept..... She told me"Did we feed the dog the bones?" So basically... It is my fault... she is right. If he had not gotten into the chicken bones.... he would be alive today..... accident or not.... it was my fault.

Then... when I went to the doctor for a second opinion... he said essentially.... without seeing him it would be impossible to know they outcome... and I appreciated his honesty...But He did not think he even had a chance. Even had the vet been there....and started treatment right away..... so again... it is all my fault. I know he didnt mean it to sound like my fault....he said it to make me feel better. That all I would have gotten from starting treatment would have been a big bill and still no dog. And I know I am reading futher into it thatn he meant.... but that is what he sadi essentially.

so much for what I thought was great progress through the journey of grief... I am back to step one......if not worse.

Please Kamikazi... forgive me.... I am so sorry I didnt do enough to prevent this. I am so sorry I killed you.. I did not mean it and would give my life up today if I knew it would give yours back. I am so sorry.... I am going to Hell for this.

What they told you is complete bull~~. Banfield HQ is trying to avoid a lawsuit.

I would still persevere against them -- they were WRONG in the way they treated you and Kamikazi AND, please, please read the short article in the following link --
You are human, we are human, and accidents happen all the time in this world, they happen in a flash, and we just can't control everything. Please, please don't blame yourself. I know how that is, and I know it's difficult, but you did everything you could to try to save Kamikazi. I am so sorry that it happened. I know how your heart is breaking.

Here's the link http://www.petloss.com/dealing.htm

Love,
Marcia

I think that Marcia makes a really good point about being human. We're not perfect, and accidents do happen. Please don't blame yourself. You loved Kamikazi so very much and you would have never intentionally put him in harms way.

Take care,
Kathleen

This was an accident and absolutely not your fault.

The way the vet treated you that day is still uncomprehendable. I would very well sit longer in the waiting room of a vet if I knew somebody else needed emergency care, which is what should have been the case with Kamikazi.

Not that this is really on base, but as an example. I recently put new carpet in our house. After only 2 to 3 weeks of having it, I thoughtlessly cared a bucket of bleach throughout the house and spilled several drops in areas on the new carpet. I was devastated, as I've needed new carpet for quite some time. I called a carpet place to come out to see what could be done. Needless to say, he advised that the best thing to do would be to call my homeowners insurance. We did, and they are taking care of it. In all do respect, this was my fault.

Your vet should be held somewhat liable for not taking quicker notice to the seriousness of the situation. Don't let them try and place all the blame on you, and don't accept it.

It may be easier to let it go, if that is your choice, and grieve for Kamikazi as any loving parent would, to help your pain. I just hate to see the way this whole organization has been treating you.

My heart goes out to you.

Midwest

It is NOT your fault! You did nothing to harm him... you
never gave him the bones. If it's one thing I've realized, reaquainting myself
with death again through this, it's that the old adage is true... bleep happens...
life throws you curve balls.

There was a whole sequence of decisions I made about Sunne
that eventually lead to his passing... you made none that caused the passing of
Kamikaze- you kept treats away from him, you never gave him those bones, and
it sounds like you were a brilliant Mom to him... Don't torture yourself any more
than the pain you already feel in his absence - that alone is enough...

Easier said than done I know, but this is the empirical truth- it was not you.