I think our life is like making our own tapestry. As we get closer to the true pure love, our colors are brilliant and intense. As we weave our thread it intertwines with other colors, but our thread is our own, intertwining with all that is dear to us and strengthens our thread of light. Sometimes there will be things that happen that cause that thread's color to fade and it can be covered easily by darker threads. But if that thread keeps giving from that pure place in spite of the dark thread that runs along side of it waiting to tear it given the chance, it will become stronger and stronger and then it will be come so bright it will blot out the dark. Pamela
AND THEY ALL SAID AMEN!!!!!!!!!!

Dear Pamela,

Thank you for this post ~ this day the colors have dimmed today and gray shadows lengthen in the corners of my mind ~ Healing is for me that weaving and striving for the light ~ and the love ~ these past months some days the light illuminates the path for a brief moment ~ other times such as this day I am oppressed by the quick sand of this grief ~ I know I am blocking another level of pain when this inertia and sinking begins again ~ today I heard a quote that spoke to me ~ " It is not the truth we fear but the feelings that arise in the process of accepting that truth " When I have this fear I want everything to go back to the way it was so I do not have to face my feelings ~ yet I know in my heart if I focus on the love and the light there is no fear ~ I look for my old self ~ my innocent joy at life and then remember This inertia and sinking into shadow is protection from perceived pain and greater disllusionment ~ I don't want to stay there ~ I appreciate the &%^ogy of the tapestry ~ the weaving ~ the integration ~ the intertwining ~ life ~love and light ~

Thanks again to you and all who have been kindly helpful in this journey of grief ~ I miss my Amber so much ~

Sincere Appreciation ~ Kathryn

Dear Pamela, This was absolutely beautiful and I love it so much it really tells how life can continue on. How comforting that they get stronger and stronger until it becomes so bright it blots out the dark, thats what I want for us all. Hugs
Love, Ann

This was just a thought that I was leaving with.
I feel like I have healed now enough to get on with it. I want to thank MD it has been a wonderful site and a great way to honor Tribble. And so many others that helped me through the most intense pain I can ever remember feeling. It is time to take the next step to healing. God bless each and every one of you. Pamela

And a beautiful thought it is!

God bless you, too, Pamela. Don't be a stranger. Check back in with us from time to time.
Love,
Kathleen

PS - I posted this statement to Jim, but wanted you to know that it applied to you too...

I've often said that the one good thing that came from Shiloh's passing was that I met some wonderful people who really did renew my faith in humanity...and you, Pamela, were one of them.

Thank you Pamela, they are such beautiful and wise words. I hope so much you will still be around ... you bring us so much wisdom and straight-talking and I would miss you greatly. I have always thought of you as one of the anchors here, certainly for me, and I am sure for many others. I hope all the wonderful and good people, that make this site what it is will continue to post.

with love
jilly

Dear Pamela, You have helped me time and time again as many of the members have, and I am so thankful for you and for them. I guess when the worst of the pain is over we feel we need to back away and go on in a world without our babies.

No, that is not the truth of why I am backing away. I am going to be honest here. I am backing off this board because I did not enjoy being asked what kind of nutcase..... I did not enjoy seeing my friends get hurt by ugly words and the thoughtless things said to them. So to avoid going through an ugly scene again I will finish this journey alone.

It is sad when people get attacked just because they pour their heart out and say what is on their mind. Yes, some good was mixed in with the bad. But that does not make up for words that were spoken that should have never been said. I can no longer stay here where someone tries to make others look bad. You have my e-mail address so keep in touch. You know I love you as a sister.
Love, Ann

Dear Pamela,

I want to thank you for all of your heartfelt posts. You tell it "like it is" and I admire you for that. You're a very strong person and you'll be OK. I felt so bad when I read that "nasty" post about you but I knew you'd rise above it!

I wholeheartedly agree with Kathleen. The only good to come out of losing Rusty is that I am assured there are so many kind, caring, truly good people out there. Pamela - you most certainly are one of them! Take care of yourself...............I'm honored to have known you.

Love,
Lynn

You have my email address, Pamela. Let's not be strangers.......Much love to you....