Hi all.
I don't know to say fortunately, or unfortunatly meatball hasnt died.
I guess it would matterif it was for me or him.
I know he wants to be alone, but I cant help going in to my room and talking to him and evn cradling him more.
After all thats going to be the thing I miss the most.
I think he knows im mourning, he ws there when my dad passed away. he remember how I was then.
and when i would sit on my back porch and cry he would walk up and hop into my lap and nuzzle me.
It always helped, but today he can barely move.
The skies are grey here, and a light rain is coming down.
I go into the room and talk to him normally, when i can. And tell him I love him and will miss him.
But today I think I had the most special moment i might ever have.
Last time I walked out of my room I noticed a single wide shaft of light coming in as the rain let up.
So, more for myself, I called to him and said theres something I wanted him to see.
when we got to the back porch i pointed up and said "See that? Thats where you're going, your going to see Dad. he'll take care of you."
What amazed me is that HE LOOKED RIGHT AT IT , then laid his head on my shoulder nose buried in my neck.
I wasnt even sure he could see.
He knows, You were right.
David