Never in my life have I felt such crushing unbearable saddness. My heart goes out to all of you who have posted on this site, for I now know what you all have experienced.

Kerry

Dear Kerry,

I read and responded to your original post several days ago and have thought many times since then about you and Shandy, and the difficult decision you would be faced with.

I'm so sorry for the loss that you're feeling now. I remember the first days and weeks after Shiloh's passing...the pain and sadness were excrutiating. With time I've found peace in knowing that I gave Shiloh a great gift by ending her suffering. Shiloh has been gone for almost 8 months and although I still miss her terribly, I find myself comforted by the happy memories of her and not tormented by her absence.

Be gentle with yourself and allow yourself the time and space to grieve and heal.
You and Shandy are in my thoughts.
Kathleen

Kerry, Yes it feels as though it is the most crushing unbearable sadness that anyone can go through. I can tell you for sure that it will get easier and the pain will lessen. The first few weeks are the hardest for most of us then then pain will soften to where you can bear it. Most of us have found that crying brings us healing over time.

I just don't know what I would have done without this LS site and all the wonderful people that helped me through. I came here in Oct. because I was looking for help to deal with the coming loss of my little Snookie that had cancer, cushing's disease, and diabetes. She was sick and in the hospital off and on for a little over 10 months. I lost her the day after Christmas just 6 weeks and 3 days after our son's chihuahua.

Our's son little chihuahua had asthma and an enlarged heart and she was being treated for that. She altered between living with our son and us. Chili Bean lived with us for the last 9 months of her life. In Nov. 11, 04 I took her to the vet because her nose was twisted and she couldn't breathe. He said she was suffacating and would have to be put to sleep. Some nerves had hit her face and was causing the problem. He could have done an operation but he said he did not believe she would make it off the operating table. So I choose to put her to sleep.

I do know the pain we have when we lose our babies we loved with all our hearts. Hold on tight and it will get better and one day you will smile once again when you think of your precious Shandy. One day you may even laugh at some of the things she did. I know that "one day" doesn't help the pain right now, but it will get better.
Ann

Thank You. Oneday when I can handle it I will post a picture of my girl. You all have been very kind

Kerry

Take your time, Kerry. We look forward to seeing your sweet Shandy.