I just found this site and I feel for all of you who have loss a dear little friend, my heart goes to you, I have lost 4 dogs and a cat in the last 10 years but last october I lost my fifth dog Perseus , i could not grieve properly as my husband was dying from cancer then 3 weeks later he too was taken from me.
I am very much lost and feel I do not know who I am anymore, I have four dogs at home one of them is sick and I fear she too may be taken, I cannot bare losing another one, I feel I am walking into the valley of death, I try to take a step here and there to put my life in some sort of funtioning way, but there does not seem to be any point, everytime I try something comes to stop me.

I am sorry I rave on but thank you for listening I am not the best those days, this grief journey is exhausting and there does not seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel, and how long is this tunnel if there is a light perhaps it is an incoming train, I do not know I am lost, confused, depressed, taking one day at the time but just existing not living, to see pass one day seems impossible.

Thank you for listening
Kind thoughts

I am so sorry you are feeling so sad ~ but please know that your emotions that are expressed above are so similar to the journey of grief that I have been on since I lost my Amber tabby 28March ~ it takes courage and bravery to go forward into the unknown jungle of loss and to walk through the shadows that are so frightening ~ the magic of the spirit is that you are not alone in that journey ~ I believe that a restoration to the pure state of light and love can be set once again within the heart of one that is dimmed and lost ~ this is something that I have experienced in a humble manner as I have opened my spirit to this grief. In the smallest of steps I have begun to find the healing that enables me to find my Ambie in small glimpses ~ as she reclaims her "spot" in my heart in a different manifestation ~ It is not something that I have done as a willing participant ~ I want her here now the way she was ~ and there is no changing that part of the human earthly bound part of me ~ however as the days blend into months , I have made an honest effort to open my spirit and let that which cannot be seen enter and give me rest and peace. As a result I am finding the way to make a new home for her ~ this is all she ever wanted anyway ~ to be close to me no matter what ~ I cannot deny her that just because she has transformed the way she is with me ~ this is an easy thing to write yet I am like a child that wails and weeps when I have to let go of what it is that I wanted and allow the greater more benevolent voice of that which cannot be seen speak to my heart and heal my wounded soul ~

Be gentle with yourself ~ the sadness and grief will rise and fall ~ ebb and flow ~ and it is exhausting you are so right ~ yet as each storm brews and then rages in the soul ~ more depth and love is woven into the life that remains ~ transformation ~ change ~ rebirth ~ evolves not without pain or disorientation I have found ~ so I honor my journey with love because it is all that I know is real ~

Thank you for sharing your feelings ~ I hope you find comfort "here" in the days to come ~ I too was a newcomer in March ~ the kindness and understanding and validation I have felt from knowing that there are others who care and those who have walked before me has been invaluable ~

Sincere Thoughts,
Kathryn

Dear Lilith,

I'm so sorry for all the loss you've experienced most recently with Perseus and your husband, and also all the loss you've experienced in the last 10 years.

The journey of grief is a long and difficult one, and your's seems to be compounded by multiple losses. I think taking things one day at a time is the most important thing you can do right now.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen