I am going to receive Amber's Ashes today ~ I am filled with anxiety ~ I have been keeping that part of her death remote from my mind ~ today I must face it alone ~ I am planning a little ceremony of remembrance in the Master Bedroom ~ I don't know what to do ~ I will follow my heart ~ I have learned much from everyone here ~ I will be calling upon that wealth of spiritual renewal this day ~ Please send Prayers ~ Sincerely, Kathryn

Kathryn,

You know our hearts are with you, hon. There's no rule to this... just go with your heart. Personally, I felt a sense of peace when I received Inky's ashes back, kind of a feeling of him being "home".

Be strong and we're here.

Hugs to you,

Pat

Kathryn,

I hope, like Pat said, that having Amber home brings you some peace. I burried Kasha when she died so I didn't have to make the 'trip' to pick her up but I can imagine how hard it must be.

We're here if you need us,

Kristie

dearest kathryn,
Am sending my support, prayers and love to you on this day. may amber's spirit surround you with deep peace and loving energy. i know that you will be divinely guided. please let us know how you are.

i have jupiter's ashes in a little wooden box in my cottage. it gives me comfort that they're there. sometimes i come home and shake the box a little and say hello. some days it's way too sad to do that. someday i 'll release some into my garden. i too, feel some comfort in having the ashes near.

I am sorry.. i too just got the call that Sandys ashes have arrived.. i cant pick them up today though.. i just cant do it yet.. i know she want to be home.. but i'm not ready yet.. If you find a way to make it easier let me know.. My thoughts and prayers are with you threw this difficult time.
Dawn

I'm with you also on this. I haven't gotten the call yet, but it should literally be any day. It's been 6 weeks today that I lost her and they said it would take 5-6 weeks (although they picked her up the following Monday). My thoughts are with you guys. *hugs*

Dear Kathryn, I know so well the pain of picking my little girl up and Clair and I was afraid we might fall apart but somehow we held together. I know you must be so afraid of how it will feel. I fought so hard not wanting to have my little girl cremated but because of the frozen ground I had no choice. One I got my baby home I cried and cried but it was a comfort to have her home and my fears were relieved. I am sending you big hugs and prayers.
Love, Ann

Dear Kathryn,

My thoughts are with you today. I think you will feel much better having Amber home with you. I pray that this will give you peace and comfort.

Hugs, Kimi

My thoughts are with you today. I'm sure it will be a beautiful ceremony whatever you decide.

Like others have already stated, I also felt a sense of peace when I brought Friskie's ashes home. It was like having him home where he belongs. He is in a nice box that I have on a table in the living room. I put a little statue of an angel holding a kitty on top of the box along with his picture. I also got a heart shaped pet tag made with his name and the years on it. I put the tag on the lock to the box. I have to admit that I've never opened the box. I don't want to see what's inside. I'm comfortable in knowing he will be with me always.

Hugs,
Dawn

Dear Kathryn,

Thinking of you on this difficult day. I know it won't be easy. I hope you experience a sense of peace when you bring your precious Amber "home".

Hugs,
Lynn

Dear Kathryn,

I remember the day I recieved Shiloh's ashes...it was kind of bittersweet. I was glad to have Shiloh home with me, but on the other hand, it made her passing so final.

I think having a ceremony is a wonderful idea. I did that Shiloh's ashes...I spread some in her favorite places and kept some.

My thoughts are with you today.
Kathleen

I just wanted to post again and say that I've been thinking of you ever since I posted earlier and hope all went well, and that your ceremony brought you some peace. I am glad you have Amber home with you now, where she belongs.

Kathryn.... How you doing, hon? I know you picked up Amber's ashes yesterday and just wanted to check in and see how you're feeling.

Pat

To All,

THANK YOU so much for your thoughts and caring ~ so far I am somewhat blocking my feelings ~ yesterday when I got to the Vet ~ and the receptionist brought this tiny urn with Amber inside there ~ I just held it to my heart where she last rested ~ in her final moments on this earth in the physical sense ~ I was filled with the same feelings that I felt where "we left off" there at the Vet ~ holding her ~ sending all the love I had to her little soul ~ it was hard to walk out to my car ~ I drove home oddly disconnected ~ the last time "she" was in the car with me was in her cat carrier and I was so hopeful that we would be coming home again ~ with another reprieve ~ I never wanted it to end the way it did ~ and so there we were weeks later coming home in such a different foreign manner ~ I bought some fresh daisies ~ one for her table and one for the Vet ~ I placed her urn on the pillow where she last slept ~ I placed a card of howling wolves over the urn ~ it signifies how my heart feels about her passing ~ I looked out the window at the things she used to love to see from her vantage point there on the pillow or in the window sill ~During her last months even though it was winter she meowed often to have me open the window so she could sit there ~ so many times and so unlike her for the winter ~ she wanted to take it all in ~ she marked so many things so many times as she jumped up walked to and fro ~ jumped to the end tables and back ~ so now months later I stood there with her ashes ~ such a poignant moment in time ~ I silently honored our earthly life ~ I prayed for guidance to find the spiritual way of being together now ~ it is so foreign ~ her classical music still plays ~ the peaceful life she led so very present still ~ I felt the breeze of the rainy afternoon ~ I closed my eyes ~ breathed it all in ~ and then gently closed the door and said Amen as I walked down the hall ~ down the stairs ~ to now light the candle dedicated to light and love ~

This post has been difficult ~ thank you for encouraging me to reply ~ each day the journey has changed ~ My hope is that I will continue to gather strength from the love part and that I will be graced with more of the peace that passes all understanding ~

Sincere Gratitude,
Kathryn

Kathryn,

You WILL gather strength each and every day. You're already on the road to recovery, although it doesn't feel that way now.

Amber is definitely happy to be back home with you, form not mattering. She loves you, you love her and she's with you, always.

You took a big step yesterday, sweetheart. Just the first of many. We're happy for you and here for you at all times.

Hug,

Pat

Dear Kathryn, I know how you feel having to go through picking your baby Amber up. To having her in another form other than her living self. It is so painful to realize that it is final and yet we must somehow learn to go on. The things that you did after you brought her home has touched my heart. You will continue to gather strength, you had more strength than you knew when you reached out to get your precious girl to take her home. Amber's love will see you through on the darkest days when you feel you can't go on. Hugs.
Love, Ann

Kathryn,
Getting the ashes back for me was like Kathleen said...bitter sweet,,,gone but home.
Ten days after Moose passed I got a tele call from the vet wanting to know what I wanted to do with him. I was shocked because I thought they had already disposed of his body. I felt relief cause I got to bring him home and anxiety because I didn'nt know what to expect..then .the call came they had him back, driving to that vet to pick him up was one of the hardest days in my life, walking in my door with him in a cedar box was devastating for me, I put it on the counter and looked in....my Moose that precious spirt I held in my arms was a pile of white sand....what a horrible day that was but at the same time my Moose was home.
I had posted where I wanted to scatter Mooses ashes...at our beach here, I had wonderful thoughts about it then...Ann posted "Pamela, and you dont have to scatter them you can also keep Moose with you" (I sware this woman knows my heart) so Moose sits with me now he is never very far from me, I miss him so much. Love Pamela