Hi ... sorry for jumping right in here. Last Tuesday I had to make one of the hardest decisions of my life ... to euthanize my 11 year old Golden who had been diagnosed with very agressive lymph cancer. She was definitely my girl and I can still see her raising her head whenever we were in the same room to make sure I hadn't left her. It tears my heart out that I can't be there for her anymore. And I can tell by reading your posts that you all know exactly what I'm feeling ... the "what ifs" and the "I should have been more for her". She was a wonderful furry daughter ... I'll always love her and I know I'll miss her for a long, long time.

I got another blow last night. My hubby and I went away for a pre-planned long weekend, which helped take my mind off the loss somewhat and we came home late last night to my ##atiel lying dead in the bottom of his cage! I feel like there's this huge dark cloud hanging over my head ... like I'm being kicked while I'm down, ya know?? I'm just at a total loss as to what to even think at this point! My daughter said he was fine earlier in the day ... talking and whistling. No one was home when he died and I have NO clue what could have happened.

I think I'm getting an ulcer.

Hi Misti's Mom,

I'm glad that you found us. I've been wondering how you are doing. I'm so sorry about your ##atiel.

There are others here who have experienced two fur (or feather) babies dying shortly after each other. No doubt you will get to know some of them.

This is a wonderful place to come to. If you feel up to it in the future, post a photo of Misti in the Tributes section.

Bye for now - Steph

I am so sorry for the loss of your little girl Misti. I am also sorry for the loss of your ##atiel. Even birds are so much company and give a lot of love. My husband has a quaker parrot, he talks and he is just like another child. I know how you feel about losing 2 babies. It is so hard and when your heart is already broken from the one loss the second loss just about destroys your heart and soul.

My girls were just like my daughter too and when I lost them so close together I thought I would lose my mind too. At first it was my thought that maybe I had done something evil to be punished like that but I know God does not work that way. I fell into a deep depression and I couldn't eat or sleep much and became very ill. It took a dream of my little girl to set me free and let me know I could love my remaining babies.

Come and talk often about your babies. I don't think I could have ever walked this journey alone. We do have wonderful compassionate people here at LS.
Ann

So sorry to hear of your sadness with Misti and your ##atiel.
I am sure that is so much pain to bare at one time.

I experienced the loss of my father.................. then, my precious pomeranian, Esabella in a short time period and was lost in this world, it seemed.

Both of your loved ones were so lucky to have a life and have it with you and your family.

I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Sincerely.........

Litebrez

Thank you for all your kind words. It really does help to know I'm not alone in feeling the way I do. I found myself thinking that I'm being punished for some reason and I'm trying really hard to understand that God does not work that way.

These two particular babies were my favorites of the whole bunch, which makes it doubly hard (we have two remaining dalmatians and 2 ##atoos). The dalmatians were my husbands before we met 5 years ago and the ##atoos were his Christmas gift 2 years ago. Misti was mine from the start, and even though I would feel a loss if any of the others passed, we just had the most history together and her loyalties were always to me. The ##atiel was originally my husband's daughter's. She brought it for the summer 4 years ago and I fell in love with the little squirt. We've had him ever since.

I guess I feel as if the blows were both directed at me, ya know? My husband wasn't particularly close to either of them, although he did feel the loss as well.

Oh, and Steph? I would love to post a picture. I have one with me I can scan into my computer, but I've never been very good at getting them into any posts. Are there any tricks you can help me with?

Misit's mom, I wish I knew more about the photo thing. You have to save the photo that you scanned into a format like jpg and give it a name like "Misti.jpg" and save it into a folder on your puter. Then, when you are at LS, you then hit the "browse" button on the screen. You then have to find and open the folder in you computer where your Misti photo is, and double click it, so the properties appear in the "browse" area.

Does that make any sense???

Note: posting on this site is a HECK of a lot easier than other sites I've attempted to post photos!

Good luck!

Thanks Steph! I'll give it a try!

Dear Misti'sMom,

I am so sorry about both of your babies. First let me say how sorry I am about Misti. I lost my Scottie Sasha to cancer 6 weeks ago so I know how you feel. Cancer is a horrible disease that robs us of our babies all too soon. I also had to have my Sasha put to sleep since she was getting to the point that she could hardly breathe. I still miss her alot.

Also let me say how sad I am about your ##atiel. I have two ##atiels myself and I am very attached to both of them and I would be just sick if something happened to them.

I wish I had something I could say to you to make you feel better. All I can say is that I am thinking of you and so sorry for your pain.

Nancy

I am so sorry about your losses, I to understand how devastating it is and like Ann, I was a complete wreck. There are alot of parts of it I dont even remember in the times right after Moose left my life. It has been just a little over 5 months now and i am just now starting to feel like myself. It is a process that we have to go through and not a fun one I might add, I will always be thankful for having found this site and the dear dear people that responded so kindly helped me make it through one of the worst times in my life. It will help you too. Pamela