I made a post as to how Snookie came to me in a dream to show me it was alright to enjoy my remaining babies. She showed me she wanted me to find joy and to love them and continue to play with them like I did when she was here. I believe she also came so I would stop feeling guilty. Now I am able to enjoy Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose and not shed as many tears or feel so guilty that I love them so much.

I have since taken Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose many times in the car with me since the dream. Gypsy Rose was so sad when Snookie left and she was not playing very much or anything. Her eyes were dull and sad and she mostly laid around not wanting to do anything. They used to beg me to go for car rides but I just shrugged and told them not today. I guess I did not pay as much attention to them as I did before Snookie left this world.

I am singing to Gypsy Rose and Schnitzel like I used to sing to Snookie. I am now in the floor playing with them like I did when Chili Bean and Snookie were here. My heart is not as sad and broken like it was. It took Snookie coming in my dream to start the process of healing I so needed.

Since my precious baby Snookie and Chili Bean died I only had 1 picture taken of Schnitzel and I together. But now that will change, what if Schnitzel died and I didn't have many pictures of her and I. She is a 7 month old terror on paws but she is getting better and she fills my heart with love as well as Gypsy Rose, Amber and Cinny all do. But I will always love Snookie and Chili Bean too.
Ann

Here is the picture my daughter took of Schnitzel and I today. Schnitzel is holding a chew bone in her paws, just before that she tried to put it in my mouth.

Ann, it's great that you are connecting with Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose in big way! They will be so happy. What a cute photo!

It was my mother that pointed out to me that Falkor needed me so much. She told me, (rather sternly I might add ) that Falkor really needed me. Did I want him to spend the rest of his life in an environment full of sadness, or did I want to share a lot of good times and joy with him.

I took what she said to heart. Falkor and I have had many a happy day since. It doesn't mean I don't grieve for Luba, but I put it into a compartment that won't touch the joyful times with my "Big Fella".

Dear Ann,
I am so happy to read that "your heart is not as sad or broken" .
The love you have for Snookie and Chili Bean is remarkable.......and will never end. But thanks to Snookie.........coming to you with a meaningful message.....you are feeling better and giving more love and joy to your special littles ones who adore you, I'm sure. I can visualize you singing and being more playful with your babies. They need you more than ever before and now you are able to help them in their feelings. Wow...........reading your post.........has made me so happy. It feels good when you read about a positive change ............especially after everything you have been through.

I have made a positive change, as well. There is a new addition to our family. Coco and I have a three month old, black, mini pomeranian I named our new baby, Angelo. I call him Jojo for short. I recently read that Angelo means "one sent" and in my heart......I believe this is true. I had a difficult time in making the decision to bring another pom in my life. I told everyone that I will have no other little ones. After the passing of Esabella........I just can't do it. My mother kept saying...........do this for Coco......and my heart was at war it seemed. It was an experience to find this little fellow and I am overwhelmed with all the love and joy he brings my heart. My motives were to do this for Coco and perhaps.........now I feel.........I also brought this little love here for me. I feel as others have expressed with a new lovie........Angelo will never take the place of Esabella............she can not be replaced and lives on forever in my mind and heart. It is so awesome to see Angelo as he does so many of the unique things that only Esabella would do. Then I think back to recently out of no where reading the meaning of the name Angelo.........."One sent".............and I thank my special blessing.

So dreams and meanings are indeed wonderful.

Glad we can share some happiness together.

Big hugs...

Litebrez

LMYE

Ann - It's great to see a recent picture you with such a smile on your face.......and little Schnitzel is so cute

Steph - Your mom was very wise in telling you not to be so sad around Falkor, as animals are so very intuitive. I hope to find a compartment for my grief, as you have, in the not too distant future. If not for myself, I feel I must do it for my son, husband and other pets.

Lietbrez - Congrats on your new addition! Angelo was meant to be a member of your family, especially with his name. A coincidence or perhaps your beloved Esabella had something to do with it?

Lynn

Dear Steph, Had my mother still been alive she would have been firm but yet gentle with me. Unlike my dad that told me 3 days of grieving was too long and to forget Snookie and to enjoy Schnitzel. Maybe I thought if I loved Schnitzel too much that's what people would think. I am glad you were able to place your grief in that compartment so you could enjoy Falkor.

Dear Lyme, Oh you must post a picture of your new baby Angelo. I have never seen a black pom in real life and would love to see him. I'm sure he will be your special blessing to fill your life with laughter and fun and much joy.

Dear Lynn, Thanks for saying Schnitzel is cute. It has been a long time since I have smiled that big and I must say it feels good. My children have all made coments about the change in me. The see the pain is still there but I am more able to cope with it now.
Love to you all,
Ann

Dear Ann,

It is SO wonderful to see you start enjoying life again!
I know how much you miss your Snookie and Chili Bean, but you weren't doing yourself or your family (Snookie & Chili Bean) any good sinking down lower and lower.
I am just SO, SO happy that Snookie realized how much you needed her presence. Once again, she has been your very special little girl and Angel! She has helped saved your life!!!

That picture is just adorable! I hope you start collecting more and post them for us to see.

Hugs,
Cheri

Thanks Cheri, I think I may have gotten to where I could not enjoy life at all had it not been for my angel. I got to where I would spend more and more time in the bedroom. I just sat there looking off into space when I wasn't cooking or doing laundry or cleaning or taking the girls out. Sometimes I would close the door to my heart and try to keep others away.

I was only sleeping a few hours a night. I slept for 6 hours last night without waking up once. Things really are changing for the better. I am even going to go out and eat with my husband today. We used to go a lot and Snookie always went with us so when she left this world. I felt like I had no right to go out since she wasn't there to have a to go box.

I wanted to share this picture of Schnitzel and me. My daughter took the picture as I was driving down the road. When Schnitzel was a baby she would get on the back of my neck and ride there. Oh I knew it wasn't good for safety reasons and I didn't let her stay there long. So I guess she remembered riding there and up she quickly came. I laughted my head off when she did. Just look at her on my back on my shoulder as she was in her glory laying there. It was hard to crop this picture down and I made several attempts to do so so we wouldn't have to scroll to see the words.
Cheri how is little Brandy doing, are her bite wounds healing?
Love, Ann

Oh Ann, that picture is simply priceless!
What a silly little girl She loves you SO much!!!

Thank you for asking about Brandy!
She is doing just great
She has been getting her antibiotics daily and we flush out the wounds each night. Of course she doesn't like this and my husband has to try and hold her still while I TRY to aim at the bite holes. But they are looking much better now and I do believe they will heal completely pretty soon.

Unfortunately, she is still running outside to that same tree looking for a squirrel. I hope the squirrel community has passed the word around that there is a little black midget labrador watching and waiting to pounce. I hope they spreading the word; "Don't let her little size fool you!" "Find another tree!!"

She has always been digging into the mole tunnels in the yard too. I am waiting for the day a poor little mole unsuspectingly passes through where she is watching.

My husband kids with her and tells her that she a labrador and that means she hunts ducks!!

Here's a picture I'll share too of my two babies, Danny and Brandy. As you can see, when Danny is laying next to his daddy getting attention, Brandy has to jump up in the center!

Love,
Cheri

Ann, you made Snookie smile the biggest smile ever just knowing that the message got to you and that it was well understood. Love your babies and be happy always!

Hugs,

Pat

Dear Cheri, I am glad little Brandy is doing well and coming along just fine. Thanks for posting the picture they both are dolls. We are lucky to have our babies even though they are such hard work. You should see what Schnitzel does to toilet paper. I came home one day to find it from one end of the house to the other.
Love, Ann

Dear Pat, I just wanted my little Snookie to be happy and without that dream I would have always held back just a little. Yes I will love them with all my heart now, I already did but was afraid it would betray Snookie but I know better now.
Hugs, Ann

Ann - You could never betray your precious Snookie. She must be so happy now that you're enjoying your life again. That pic of you and Schnitzel is soooo cute.

Cheri - Your Danny and Brandy are so very cute, also.....real babies - That's the way they should be treated! Glad Brandy's mouth is healing.

Lynn

Hi Ann:

Thank you for sharing that darling picture that your daughter took of you and Schnitzel !!!!!

That photo made me smile too, and made me very happy!

I am soooooooo very, very THRILLED that you, the lovely woman in the picture, is grinning
from ear to ear........
And, I could tell that it was a smile from your heart!!!

God Bless you, my friend!!

I'm so happy to hear that you are feeling better!!!
And, I know that your precious baby Snookie & Chili Bean are smiling as well!!!

Love, Denise xo