I fell asleep and had a dreamt of Snookie. I dreamed I was outside playing with Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose. My heart was not in it like it was when I played with Snookie. As we were playing little Snookie came running out of no where with the speed she had when she was well. She put her rear end in the air and knelt down on her front legs like she did so many times in the past years. It was like she had never been gone.

Then she took off tearing around me and the girls. She had a smile on her face as she darted in and out between us all. I laughed so hard as I always had when Snookie carried on like a little puppy. First she nudged Schnitzel towards me and she tried to mimic Snookie with her rear end in the air. Then Snookie pushed Gypsy Rose towards me to run and play. Soon I was playing with them like I did with Snookie over the years I laughed so hard in my dream that I woke up laughing. I layed there and cried as I thought my baby must be sending me a message.

I think my little Snookie knows what a hard time I am having with guilt as I laugh and play with Schnitzel and Gypsy and she came to me in my dream to tell me it was alright to laugh and have fun again. She showed me she wants my life to be rich and full again. Could it be that Snookie really didn't dislike Schnitzel as much as I thought? After all they did lay in bed together before Snookie left this world.

Gypsy is 4 and was almost raised with Snookie and Chili Bean since they were at my house with us so much. They loved each other so much and played together and took care of each other. I don't know why Chil Bean wasn't in my dream with them.

The tears are still streaming down my face as I type this yet I feel some kind of release. I know I will still have some hard times and a lot more tears and no doubt the guilt will linger with me for a while. I will always miss my girls and hold them close to my heart. But for the first time since my girls left this world, I feel I am going to make it through this and find some of the joy I once had.
Ann

Ann, how wonderful that Snookie visited you in your dream! I think you are right, she has come to tell you that she wants you to laugh and have fun again. It is so good to read that you feel you are going to make it through this, and you know that we are all here to help you and each other. It may take some time, but now at least you know that Snookie is looking after you and wants to hear you laugh again.

It has been nearly 3 years since Ammy died and I still sometimes get that awful feeling in my stomach when I think of him. It's strange, because at other times I can look at the photographs and feel so happy that we were privileged to look after him. My daughters gave me a lovely candle holder for Mother's Day, and the attached a picture of Ammy with one of my girls when she was just a tiny toddler. Ammy was such a patient and loving little cat, he was fantastic with all the children and taught them to love animals. It is partly because of Ammy that my 16-year old now gives some of her time to working voluntarily at the local animal rescue centre. He taught us all so much. Ammy did appear in a few of my dreams, and it was like he was truly alive - it was actually much better than our last few weeks together, because in the dream Ammy was completely healthy, I know that he is like that now, in perfect health and with no pain.

Ann, I thought about you yesterday (16th). I went to a shop on the other side of Manchester to buy some food for my cats. It isn't somewhere I go very often, but they have puppy kennels and I always have a peek! There were two tiny miniature Schnauzers staring up at me, and I immediately thought of you and little Snookie Cookie! I sent a thought out to you, even though it would have been about 3am your time. They were such adorable little things, one girl and one boy.

I don't know if there was any TV coverage of Crufts in the States and Canada, but we watched it and it was fantastic to see the bonds between those dogs and their owners! Our pets give us so very much. I went through terrible pain when we lost Ammy, but I cannot even begin to think how empty my life would have been without him. I know it is the same for you and your girls. I hope Snookie comes to visit you again!

Love, Jules

Ann,

Yes, Snookie was trying to tell you something for sure. I was told by someone who I have the most respect for that when someone dies who is very close to you they talk to you through your dreams. My snoops came to me in a dream too and like you I felt such a sense of relief. Your girl is still watching over you and yes there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Hugs,
Beth

Dear Ann,

I agree with everything Abby's mom support post stated...........as I believe our furbabies...........though we can't see or hold them, are not to far away. That may sound crazy...........but for those of us who had a loving relationship....that special bond doesn't end with a passing.

Your dream of Snookie gave you joy and a sense of a new direction. I pray that soon you will have the ability to find that happiness you are seeking.

Wishing you more joyful dreams......

Litebrez

Dear Ann,

How wonderful that Snookie came to you in a dream! And what a wonderful dream it was!

I agree with what everyone has posted, and especially with what Abby's mom said.

Now when you play with Schnitzel and Gypsy, remember that Snookie is right there playing with the three of you. Even though you can't see her, she's there playing and laughing with all of you.

Snookie gave you a great gift in that dream...what a special spirit she is!
Love,
Kathleen

Ann, I had a dream like that about Luba a few months ago. It was great, like what you said, a release. In previous dreams she had almost always been sickly and dying. The one where we played ball was so fun! I'm glad that Snookie visited you too!

I think dreams like that mean that we are healing slowly but surely. We are allowing our furbabies to be with us in a totally differnt way.

Strangely, a few days after my boyfriend's mother died I had a very vivid dream about Luba again. She was a comfort to me in the dream.

Dear Sweet Ann,

I am SO delighted to read this! It appears Snookie has been troubled by your pain and guilt. I agree that she came to you in your dream to release you from that guilt and worry. She confirmed for you that she wants you to go on with your life. She and Chili Bean will be playing and having a WONDERFUL time until you join them again someday.



I can't tell you how much better I feel after reading this. We have all been SO worried about you, Ann. You're so smart too! You are aware that you will still have some bad days. Heck, I still have them myself! But I have tried to move on with my life so that Rachael won't have to keep watching over me and worrying. I want her to enjoy her pain-free life now, playing with all our precious furbabies.

We're ALWAYS here for you Ann!!!

Hugs,
Cheri

You have all been a wonderful comfort and help to me since I joined. I joined when I knew I was going to lose my darling Snookie when she was so sick with cancer, cushings and later diabetes. My little fur grandbaby Chili Bean was having asthma attacks and heart problems, then cancer took her without us knowing she had it. It was then I plunged into deeper depression and have only gotten worse until yesterday.

Soon after Chili Bean passed away little Amber almost died because of the carpet cleaner I used. You all prayed with me and for me and my babies and stood by me the whole time. You calmed my fears about cremation and so many things. You were there when my health failed and I had a hard time recovering. I don't know what I would do without you all, your compassion has blessed me so much. God in His love not only blessed me with my fur babies but with all of you too. Many have said I have been a blessing to them and I hope to continue to be.

Today for the first time in a long time I did not turn Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose down when they wanted to go for a ride when I left the house. It as been so long and they were excited to go with me. I even felt a comfort having them go with me. Right after Snookie left this world and I took Gypsy she took over Snookie's spot and it broke my heart. The girls begged to go with me but I turned blind eyes their way and I am sorry I did that to them.

But now after having that dream I just knew that my precious Snookie would not mind me doing all the things we used to do. Yes, I had a few tears right after we got in the car but after that I was laughing with my girls. The smile on my husband's face from taking them with us was worth the tears.

I am crying as I type this but the tears feel different and I feel a little less heartbroken. I know my Snookie really does want me to continue my life without guilt and unending pain. I hope in doing so she and Chili Bean can run with all of your babies and have fun until I get there. They know I will always love them and treasure the times I had with them.
Love, Ann

Ann,
I am so glad Snookie came to you in a dream! My DJ came to me in a dream a few nights ago and he was doing just fine. I believe it helps a lot when our babies come to us like that, letting us know that they are ok. Our babies need us to be alright and we need to be alright for them. I am glad you are now going to alright!

Wanda

Dear Ann,

How wonderful your precious Snookie came to you in a dream. I'm so happy that you finally feel you're going to be able to find joy in life again. Schnitzel and Gypsy Rose will enjoy their car rides and you don't have to feel guilty for taking them with you.

You and Snookie had such a special bond, which will never be broken. She'll always be with you no matter what.

You've helped so many people here. It's about time you find peace. Through your dream, Snookie took care of that for you, her beloved mom.

Thinking of you.

Love,
Lynn