I had to put my beloved Ceasar kitty to sleep on Friday March 4, 2005. He was 2 years old. We got him when he was 8 weeks old and was told he he had a hole in his heart. But I was just recovering from heart failure myself and thought is was meant to be. They told me at the time he would probably wouldnt live 6 months. He turned 2yrs the past Jan 12. Last wednesday he started looking ill and not eating I took him to the vet and said he had a fever and started treating him for an infection. Thursday he started vomiting blood I took him back to the vet and he stayed until Friday morning when they called me and told me he vomited again and to take him to the speciality clinic. So I rushed him over there,,,he was so very weak he couldnt even stand. They couldnt do the laproscopic test because he was to weak so they ddi an ultrasound of his tummy. Thats when my world fell apart. They said he had cancer and it was bad. They told me we could treat him but he was on limited time. So I decided not to let him suffer. He was to wonderful and to loving of a cat for me to do that to him. My hubby was with him and he purred to the end. We arranged him in his box curled up like he always used to sleep. He looked at peace. Then we buried him at my moms house next to some other beloved pets. It has been one of the hardest things to cope with. I keep looking for him and I want him back so I could hold him again and hear him purr one more time. It hurts sooo bad. He was the most loving cat he slept with me every night and would jump up in my arms. I still find myself looking towards one of his favorite sunning spots to only find it empty. I'm glad this site is here and you are all here to listen I really could use a listening ear.

Christie

Christie,
I uinderstand how you feel. There are so many things beyond our control. I lost my Jake when he was very young (2 years), and my Zipper (1 year) when she was even younger. We just had our Manuks put to sleep (14 years). The thing is, It seems to be harder on me with the young ones. I think of the times we are not going to be able to share and I am sad. WIth Manuka, I smile and laugh thinking of the times we did have. Slowly, I am smiling with memories of Jake and Zipper too! I try and remind myslef that animals are so blessed because they do not know time as we do. There are unaware of the shortness of life, so they enjoy every day as if it were a gift, never worried about the next, living in the present. You did a wonderful thing for your Ceasar. You let him rest while he could still purr! How very wonderful of you. The ardest thing is to let them go. But he is at peace and watching over you! Don't be afraid to cry and be angry and second guess....this will all happen and is normal. I for one think you made a very good, but very hard, decision. Remember you will smiole again when you thing of him. The good memories will eventually overtake the giref. I am thinking of you! Martina

PS...he looks so very much like my Zipper.......maybe the two of them are smiling down on us as they chase butterflies today!

Christie,
I am so very sorry for your loss of Ceasar. My 17-yr old furkitty passed 9-mo ago and then our 12-yr toy poodle passed on 2/24/05. It's been very hard! In time you will be smiling and perhaps laughing at some of the great times you and Ceasar had or some of the funny and comical things that he'd do. I have gotten to that point where my furkitty, Fuzzball, is concerned but not just yet where my dog, DJ, is concerned....it's to soon. My heart goes out to you and I wish you all the best. Please keep coming here as it does help. It has helped me in the past just as it is now


Wanda

Thank you so much. I know as time passes it wont be so hard as it is now and each day is a little easier. I found myself smiling as I thought about him. Martina Zipper and Ceasar do look a lot a like. I hope they are playing together and happy and free and Ceasar is not ill anymore.


Christie

Hi Christie, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Ceasar. He was a real doll and I know how much you must miss him. Don't be embarrassed to let the tears fall. They will help you heal and over time you will be able to smile at so many things he has done. But until then allow yourself to grieve for all you have lost. I am glad you were able to be with him and that you gave him the gift of taking away his pain.
Ann

Dear Christie,

I'm so sorry for your loss of Ceasar. He was so very handsome, and so very young. My Shiloh was only 5 years old when she died with cancer. It's so hard loosing our precious furbabies regardless of their age.

You're in my thoughts.
Kathleen

Christie,

Losing a baby so young is difficult and I'm very, very sorry for your loss. Many years back, I lost a furbaby at 8 mos. from an undetected tapeworm (very painful way to die).

My thoughts are with you.

Hugs,

Pat

caesar was so beautiful! i bet the two of you had some wonderful times together. i'm sorry that he is no longer with you, such a shame to lose such a young friend. you are such a big-hearted person to take in a cat that you knew had a hole in his heart. i'm so glad that he was loved so much before he left this world.
i know how much you are hurting. the pain suprised me so much when i lost my kitty. i had no idea that i would experience such anguish from the loss of a pet. we love them so much and it is so hard to let them go - but we do let them go because we love them. like you said, caesar was too kind and loving to allow him to suffer any more than he had to. rest assured that you did the right thing, as hard as i know it was to make that awful decision to have him euthanized. just remember all of the love that he gave you while he was with you. be strong, ah