I had to write this to you because I too am going through the hardest time right now. My baby of 14 years got really sick the weekend of Feb. 5th.
When I took her to the vet on Monday a.m., he took blood and gave her
fluids because she hadn't eaten in 2 days. When I got the results back on Wed., the vet told me she was in kidney failure. Her BUN was 210, normal
was 30. We tried for the next 10 days to give fluids in the hope that this
would work and get her kidneys functioning again. The BUN number did
not change enough to indicate that the fluids were helping. I too had to make that final decision to have her put down. We buried her the next day on our land. It has been a week now and I look for her everyday to come and meet
me or be at the foot of the bed where she slept. I could not stay in the
room when the vet gave her the injection. I feel that I betrayed her but
people told me that would not be how I wanted the last time to see her be.
I know I did what was right for her because she was sick and had stopped eating the last 4 days and would throw up after drinking water but I miss her
so bad. I think I do o.k. for a while then the tears start flowing all over again.
I too wait for the day when we cross the Rainbow Bridge together. God bless my little girl.
I miss you
Lacy J
Nov. 1990 - Feb. 2005
Julie

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Hi Julie, I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful Lacy she was a doll. You did the very best you could for her and then gave her the gift of life. Life free from pain, a life free to run and play at the Rainbow Bridge with our fur babies here from LS.

Please don't feel guilty not everyone can stay with their babies when they pass away. It does not mean you love her any less. I know the tears all to well but just let them flow they are for healing.
Ann

Oh, Julie, my heart grieves for you because I know what you're going through. What a beautiful picture of Miss Lacy!

I wish there was something I could say that would make your grieving easier, but there isn't.

I truly believe, though, that we will be reunited with our babies when we pass. I feel that when we make the decision to not let them suffer anymore, we are helping them pass to heaven - it is NOT an ending.

Your girl is beautiful (SHE STILL IS!) and Lacy would not want you to feel guilty about anything.

I wish there was more I could do for you. Please feel free to e-mail me if you wish.

Sending you a (((hug)))

Jan

Dear dear Julie,
You did not betray Lacy. You spent her whole lifetime loving her, and she knows how much you loved her. Always remember that.

She is just precious. I love the picture -- it's beautiful! I adopted an 8-year old poodle from the shelter in July. Her name is Maggie, and she looks a lot like Lacy. I am finally going to post Maggie's picture in the Cyber Shoulder forum.

Take care of yourself.
Love,
Marcia

To Ann, Jan , Marcia and everybody else at LS,

Thank you for all your wonderful responses......it is so comforting to
know that there are others out there like myself and that I am not
alone. As I told my husband last night, I had no idea that it would
hurt this bad. I did go to the Dr. and he told that I do need to go
through the grieving process as like with any death. I knew I couldn't
keep her forever and that we did what we had to do but the pain
sometimes is so unbelievable. I know I will be o.k. in time but for right
now, as you all know to well, the tears flow. One thing I am thankful
for is that my husband had to have surgery the day after we put Lacy
down and I have been able to be off work to be with him. I don't think
I wouldhave been able to be around people right away. I go back to work
on Monday, maybe that will help to take my mind off things. Thanks again
for all your hugs......I need them. Julie

Dear Julie,

Lacy was just beautiful. Please know that my thoughts are with you during this difficult time. Hang in there.

Love,
Lynn

Julie-

What a beautiful picture of your Lacy in the snow. I am so sorry for your loss. I know how hard it is to go through this. It is a terrible thing to lose a beloved pet. I am still desperately missing my Lucy who passed on 3 weeks ago. Some days are definitely harder than others. Thank you for sharing a picture of your baby girl. I hope she and my dog Lucy found each other at Rainbow Bridge...

Caroline

Yesterday was 6 weeks that my sweet Lacy has been gone. The pain I feel
today is so much like that first week. I thought I was getting better and
that things were getting easier but I have cried so much today. I still just
miss her being around. I think about her little bossy ways and just long
to hear that bark one more time. Easter Sunday was a very bad day
because I always took her to my mom's and since there are no human
grandchildren, she was always the main attraction and nobody even
mentioned her name for fear of making me cry. I found that out the next
day from my mom. Nobody wanted to hurt my feelings. But I do hurt and
I do need to talk about her. I felt like I was making progress and trying
to move on but I don't know what happened. Today is a very sad day for me.

Julie