My poor Harley girl cat was only 11 yrs old and I made the gut wrenching decision to put her to sleep. About 4 weeks ago she was very sick and was partially paralized in her hind. Lots of tests, draining her bladder 2x's a day, anti-biotics, even accupunture. Her test results showed infection, but all others negative. She regained her strength and started walking after 2 weeks of pills and food thru syringes. Blood tests showed back to normal. All of a sudden she turned for the worst. She couldn't even pick her head up. Her eyes rolled up and stiff limbs. The doctor said she may have had a blood clot that traveled to her brain. Her labored breathing and moaning was the last straw, I couldn't let her be in pain. Monday we took her in for the last time. My heart feels ripped out and she's everywhere. My nosey-nose Bo MaGoo won't be sticking her head in the sink, or in the fridge, or in my glass of water for a sip. I start sobbing and can't stop. Reading the other posts helps me realize I'm not alone.

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Harley. It is just so hard to watch our babies when they are in so much pain. You gave her the greatest gift of love you could ever give. She is running free with all of our babies from LS at the Rainbow Bridge. I know how very much it hurts and causes the tears to fall. It helps to talk so come often and post all you need to.
Ann

I am so sorry for your loss. You aren't alone. All of us here have paw-print shaped holes in our hearts where our lovelies have left memories.

Here is a poem a friend of mine sent me when my old girl Carmen went to the bridge. I don't know who wrote it, but it is beautiful.


For a Child who has Lost Her Cat

They go
you know:
no matter the dish of tinned tuna
the nest you build in your own quilts
the felt mouse
and the ball with pink and yellow stripes.
They disappear:
into the paths of cars
into talons and beaks
into the arms of strangers
and the ravages of private disease.
And from their leavings we learn
of leaving:
how everything that pads into our lives
soft-footed sleek
pads out again into the night
leaving traces.

I am very sorry for the loss of your sweet Harley. You've come to the best place. We all understand what you're going through and will be here for you.

Thinking of you,

Hugs,
Lynn

harley sounds like a sweet cat, i'm sorry that he is no longer with you. it is such a hard thing to go through - everyone here can tell you that. they come and fill our lives with so much love and happiness - then they leave and a piece of our heart goes with them. it hurts. please know that you made the right choice. as so many here have told me "you took on her pain so that she could be without pain." that is the one thing that makes so much sense to me right now. although you are in so much pain at the moment, harley is not because of the decision that you courageously made.
you're right about not being alone. everyone here is at different stages of grieving and they are all so willing to offer comforting words or advice. come here as often as you like to read and/or post. i think that coming here is the only thing that held me together through the week that i lost kitty. hang in there - we're here for you, ah