It was the first day of summer 1985, I was staying in the apartment in my parents basement when a little blk kitty scratched at my window, I had no idea where she had come from, I opened the window and she was with me until 2001, I called her my comforter, she was my baby girl. In 1994 my mom passed, by this time Summer had a set of manx kittens thus is Gato Manx...Moose came into my life in 1995 and my dad passed in 1996, I was devastated but I had my Moose and Summer and Gato.....
Well Mom and Dad had a poodle named Spike, he was their child, they loved him greatly and Spike was there to help Dad through losing Mom. Spike was 10 when Dad died, and he was put in the will for me to take care of until his passing, I was able to honor my fathers wishes, And they had a yard dog...Niki, So after dad passed, I packed up everyone and moved to western WA. In 2001 things went bad. Summer had developed thyroid problems, Spikes teeth had gone really bad and he was suffering for it, Niki started losing her hair and breaking out in sores, I had little money, so in one day, I had my brother take Summer, Spike and Niki to be put to sleep, it was a heart wrenching day......but I had Moose and Gato, Moose helped me get through it all he was like my right arm.
Last Oct. I got distracted for a few minutes and he took off to a busy street, he was hit, it broke his back, it was the most awful experience I have ever had in my life. Moose had to be put to sleep the following morning, thus sent my life into turmoil. It has been so hard ever since, but I am making it...keeping the faith. Pamela

Pamela,
You have been through so much, I had no idea. You must be a strong & courageous woman to have faced so much turmoil with your babies. And I didn't realise poor Moose had been hit by a car. I'm so sorry, I can understand how completely heartbroken you must be.
They will all be in Rainbow Bridge now, chasing butterflies in the sun. You'll have alot of babies to kiss & hug up there, when the time comes!
Much love,
Elsie

Dear Pamela,
You have come such a long way since you first came on here. I know how guilty you felt when you let Moose out of your sight for just a few minutes. When he was struck down by a car. You heard the sound and you just knew it was your little boy. I know how much pain losing your precious little boy has caused you. And the pain you suffered with having to give up your other fur babies too.

I am so glad you are getting more of your story out my sweet friend. I remember when you told me you lost Summer, Spike, and Niki all in one day due to lack of funds. You did the very best you could bearing the load while you were so all alone.

There comes a time for many people when they just don't have the money and they have to put them to sleep. It is not cruel, or mean, nor does it show a lack of love. It just mean because they love them and they can't afford the treatments they had no other choice. Pamela your love showed through even then too.

I cried and I still cry with you for the horrible heartbreak you went through. I knew how much guilt you felt when you lost Moose I can tell you still feel it.. But you gave Moose and your other babies your all, for you see you gave your whole heart you loved them with. They knew they were cherished and so dearly loved by you. As they loved you.

Pamela you have become like a sister to me and I love you like one too. Keep pressing on, holding on, keeping the faith. We all here at LS will make it, painful as it may be, we will be survivors and the pain will lessen over time. Yet we will always love our babies until we are with them and hold them in our arms again.
Love, Ann

i cannot imagine losing so many loved ones as you have. i'm so sorry for your many losses. do you still have gato? i certainly hope that you have someone to help you through. if not, you have us. my thoughts are with you, ah

I do have many good caring friends, but even with them all, it was a time I learned that it is a personal journey in alot of ways. They all seen me go into deep depression after Moose, I am getting much stronger and I am ready and excited about resuming my life. And like my dear friend Ann said "pressing forward" there is a reason all this happens.
Even in my grief I felt guilty because I was lucky that everyone died old and in the world there are mothers watching their children murdered, starving, and parents killed in front of their children.
I try to approch it with a thankful heart. I remember when my father turned 50 oh how I thought that was so old, and I just knew he was going to die, I must have been around 11 or 12 I went behind the house crying for God not to take my dad,,,,well you know what? He answered that prayer, my dad died at the age of 81 having lived a full life. Some life lessons are much harder than others, that is why it is always important to count your blessings in spite of it all.
Amber, Gato will be 17 this year, here is a pic of them, dont let it fool you, even though Summer had one eye and no teeth she ruled Thanks for caring you guys Love to you all. Pamela N

Dear Pam,

God Bless you! You have been through so much, my friend! Your extreme love for furbabies shines through every word you type in here. Although you have experienced so much death (human and furbaby) you have stayed strong and come through it all. I am in awe of your faith and hope, and pray I can become just half the person you have become in life.

Hugs,
Cheri

Pamela-
You are indeed a very strong woman.
I marvel at your amazing courage to face the world despite all the difficulties and losses you've suffered.
You have always provided me, and others in the LS family, with words of wisdom, comfort, and support.
You've done all this while dealing with your own loss and grief.
Thank you so much for all that you do dear friend.
Love,
Fran

Dear Pamela :

I'm so sorry.....I didn't know you had been through soooooooo much, my friend.....
And, you still come here everyday to comfort, love & help people on their journey
after losing their furbabies.......

You ARE A VERY, VERY STRONG WOMAN!!!



I love the FOOTPRINTS POEM........

When life is too difficult, and we don't think that we can make it......we'll see only
one set of footprints...........And, it's at that time that God is carrying us.....

One minute at a time........one day at a time.....

You have always been an inspiration to me, Pamela!

God Bless You!

Love, Denise xo

I want you all to know that you have made me feel very special. When I was at my worst ..as I was laying on the floor crying, I asked God "Please help me, send me an angel because I cannot bare this" You know what? He sent me a whole bunch of them. I feel so blessed. I love you all. Pamela

Your Summer is a mirror image of my Inky. Thank you for sharing that.