i am at a total loss, yesterday, valentines day, peanut died at 840 pm while rushing her to the after hours clinic. six dats prior i awoke but could not find her, when i did she was breathing with difficulty.my wife took her to her vet(i didnt because i could not cope,for 14 months ago i lost muffin to from a three year battle with diabetes) the vet said lung infection and gave antibiotics. peanut quit eating and drinking and iknew from muffin how serious it is for cats to go without food and water. she went everyday and got worse choking sounds.heavy breathing.eyes half shut.and hiding. i syringe fed her, fluids were given under skin by the vet,still no improvement. but sunday she jumped up on our laps and cleaned herself for the first time in 5 days,we felt joy. but monday she relapsed, the vet gave her another anti biotic and a cortisone shot to reduce inflamation.at 530 pm she hacked and choked.stumbled,and was scooting backwards, called vet didnt want to over stress her by coming back. I gave her the new meds and within 3mins she went into labored breathing,peed on carpet,fell on her side, and cried out in horrible sound.we loaded her up, i drove franticly while my wife held her. she started to gasp open mouth. set her down, she went to the back of the van, my wife was screaming and sobbing, then an even more horrifying sound and she was dead. i pulled over on the 4 lane highway sobbing, what had we done wrong?, how was i going to tell my 5 year old daughter that i could not save her,my mind,heart,soul are so emptied today

Dear Matt,
I am so so sorry for the tragic loss of your sweet Peanut.
It sounds as if you did everything you could possibly do to help her.
I know the deep sadness and emptiness you are feeling now.
I am glad you found LS. Everyone here is kind and will lend their support.
I lost my beloved dog Indy, 7 weeks ago and would not have survived...some days are still hard.... were it not
for the kindness of the people who visit this site.
We are all here for each other.
Thinking of you at this very sad time.
Fran

Matt-
I am so saddened to read your post about your baby peanut. How devastating to lose her in such a sudden and stressful way. It is a horrible, horrible loss you have suffered, and everyone here knows your grief and pain. I lost my chocolate lab Lucy on Friday, Feb 4th to lymphoma. I am still absolutely crushed. I was crying and hysterical for 2-3 days straight, and while I miss her terribly, the sharpness of the grief has subsided into more of a dull numbness. I am sure it was even more of a shock to you as you felt she was on the way to recovery on Sunday. It probably makes everything that happened Monday seem all the more unreal. You are likely still in a state of shock. Try and get through the next few days. I promise, it will get better.

Caroline

Hi Matt, I am so sorry that you lost both your little Peanut yesterday and your Muffin 14 months ago. It is just so painful when there is nothing we can do to save them no matter what we do for our babies. Just let the tears flow and I hope you and your wife was able to tell and comfort your little daughter. Five is such a tender age but somehow children do pretty well when they have to face death. Hold and hug each other and come and post often and talk about your babies. I know it is hard to bear but we will help you and cry with you too.
Ann

Dear Matt,
I am so very sorry to hear of your very sudden an enexpected loss of dear Peanut. I know you must be traumatised by the way in which it all happened, I really feel for you. Be reassured you did everything in your power you possibly could have done. On this site we have all experienced the devastation & pain & emptiness that comes with the loss of our loved ones, and you will find support & comfort here. You have had a dreadful and painful experience; my heart goes out to you. Thinking of you..
Elsie

Dearest Matt, I am so sorry about to read about the loss of your Peanut.


You did everything you could to try and save her.Please do not feel guilty.You did everything right from what I read.Peanut was just too ill it seems.

I came here not too long ago.I wish I had come here immediately after my baby's death because coming here really helps me. Everyone here has gone through the same thing more or less.Let them help you too Matt.

And you will find the words to comfort your daughter.They will just come to you from your loving spirit.The same loving spirit that enabled you to desparately try and save Peanut.