It is time for me to admit that I am just to sick to try to make anymore posts for a while until I am feeling better. I think I will follow my doctor's orders and stay in bed for a few days and do nothing at all. My husband bless his heart will be cooking our meals and doing what needs to be done in the house and my children will come over and check on me.

I am so sick, worn out, weary and so very tired. My strength is gone and I feel like a basket case. The journey of my darling Snookie's fight for her life that lasted for over 10 months until she gave up was the worst troubling time of my life. So much love and sorrow, pain and tears, sleepless nights, and many prayers on my knees took place during that time before she left this world. I miss my little girl so much.

Chili Bean's death came as a total shock and left my heart broken and feeling so guilty for telling her she would be alright. I loved her like she was my own and not my sons. My husband and I kept her at our house for the last 9 months of her life.

Our daughter's cat Amber was so ill and we thought we were going to lose her and she had to stay in the hospital for a while . She is just now gaining a little weight back. I felt like it was my fault that she became sick from the carpet cleaner and it almost cost Amber her life.

Then my sister gave me a miniature schnauzer puppy and I felt guilty when I came to love her after just a few days of her coming into my home. Now I love Schnitzel with all my heart and I enjoy her so very much. She will never replace my Snookie Cookie but she is a doll.

All I have done is cry off and on the last few days I have never felt so out of control of my emotions in my life. I went back to the doctor today and he said it is good to get the tears all out and to keep taking the nerve pills that he gave me Friday. He said my emotions will level off pretty soon and I will start to feel better. Well there you have it my dear friends and I am sorry I am to weak to offer words of comfort at this time. My thoughts, heart and prayers are with you all. Hugs for all who want them and need them.
Ann

Ann, I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so ill. The death of our loved ones is such an emotional experience & it can take its toll on our health; & I know you love & miss your babies, Snookie & Chili Bean, terribly. Your kind words on my entries have been a real comfort to me (as have all the kind responses to my entries). I very much hope you feel better very soon. Do as your doctor says, & rest, & get all the tears out. My thoughts are with you.
Hugs,
Elsie

Ann- you have been such a presence at this website, always responding to others in their time of need. I am so sorry that you are feeling so ill but now you need to take care of yourself. Snookie and Chili Bean would want that for you. I will be thinking of you...Get well...

Caroline

Dear Ann :

PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE, ETC......(X 100 TRILLION)......................

Do as your physician says, Dear Ann....... Okay????

YOU ARE A VERY, VERY, VERY IMPORTANT PERSON, ANN..............and, my heart would break totally if I heard anything ever happened to you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

You are an extremely LOVING CHILD OF GOD.......You and your husband......

I know you know that saying.............."YOU CANNOT HELP OTHERS, UNTIL YOU FIRST HELP YOURSELF!!

You have been helping sooooooooooo many, many people Ann..........(including myself), but at the same time......(all the while),.........feeling terrible yourself.......

I can only imagine how your children feel Ann
...............
They LOVE THEIR MOM SOOOOOOO VERY, VERY MUCH!!!!!!!!
You need to be here for your kids!!!!!!!

I'm 44, you and I are close in age, so I look to you like a sister ; (I don't have any sisters).....
But, your children and Clair must be terribly worried......

You OWE IT TO YOURSELF, YOUR CHILDREN AND TO CLAIR TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF MY SWEET FRIEND.....
OKAY???????
WILL YOU PROMISE TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, ANN?????????

ALWAYS & FOREVER KNOW ANN, THAT SNOOKIE COOKIE LYNN WOULD NEVER, EVER, EVER WANT YOU TO FEEL THIS BADLY............................

I KNOW THAT.......FROM KNOWING YOU, AND FROM KNOWING HOW YOU FELT ABOUT SNOOKIE, AND HOW SHE FELT
ABOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!

Ann, I've been here at Lightning-Strike for just over one year now, my friend....
And, LS has been SOOOOOOOO VERY, VERY BUSY, WITH NEW PEOPLE ALL THE TIME......

Ann, you HAVE ALWAYS COME TO THE RESCUE, HELPING PEOPLE..........(ALMOST AS SOON AS THEY GET TO POST).....

You are sooo very, very thoughtful and loving Ann......I know that it's in your nature to make sure that you write (post) to our newcomers, so that they don't feel alone.......

And, believe me.........that is sooo very beautiful, Ann.......... But, sometimes, we all have to take a step back and realize that "we are hurting, too...."

I know "your childhood history", and, given what I know.............I know that you want to help people, as much as you can..........as often as you can.......
You give such wonderful advice, Ann...............I know that you have helped so many people!!!!!!!!

But, you HAVE BEEN THROUGH SOOOOOO MUCH, MY SWEET FRIEND.....
IT'S TIME TO TAKE A BREAK.......

And, your words, thoughts, prayers, etc., etc., HAVE ALWAYS BEEN APPRECIATED SOOOOOO VERY MUCH!!!!!

Right now though, IT'S ANN'S TIME TO REST, AND TAKE CARE OF HERSELF!!!!!!!!!!!

Dearest God in Heaven, Will you please allow Ann to get the rest that her doctor wants her to have......?...and, the rest, that I AM SURE THAT YOU WANT HER TO HAVE???!!!!

(Not to mention, the rest that (I AM QUITE, QUITE SURE), YOUR CHILDREN AND YOUR HUSBAND WANT YOU TO GET??

*********PLEASE**********??????

(YES, I am begging you, Ann!!!!)

Remember Ann.............although your darling Snookie has been gone to Rainbow's Bridge for ??8"ish" weeks.....YOU WERE FEELING TERRIBLE FOR 10++ MONTHS, BECAUSE SHE WAS SICK. (When she was so very sick, that REALLY, REALLY IS LIKE A LOSS!!!!)

So, with regard to Snookie Lynn's illnesses.....you've been worrying and suffering for quite some time.....

You have been grieving for quite a long time, Ann.....

Thinking back when, I was "grieving Ernestine's illness/death, for about four months before it happened....."

Not to mention, Sweet Chili Bean, Ann..............Yes, she was your son's furdog, but also very, very close to you, my
friend!!! Right??? You loved Chili Bean so much, I know that.... We all do!!!!!

And then, sweet Amber............she was also very, very ill......... She was sooooo sick for a long while.... Thank goodness, she got better!!

Ann..............YOU HAVE HAD SOOOOOO MUCH GOING ON......

Now, it's your turn to take care of yourself, my sweet friend, Ann!!!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU...........AND, I KNOW THAT MANY, MANY (ALL) PEOPLE HERE AT LS LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!
I surely hope that you have felt loved, because in posts to you........."I have FELT IT......"

I do believe that you have my personal e-mail address, and my phone number, Ann........... Please, if ever
you need to contact me......If you don't, just PM or E-Mail me, and I will send along my personal address, phone #'s..

PLEASE DO NOT HESITATE IN THE LEAST TO CONTACT ME.............. ALWAYS KNOW THAT I WILL CALL
YOU RIGHT BACK!!!!!!!

Okay????

I am available for you, my friend......

Please, follow your doctor's orders, Ann..........
You have lost a lot of weight......
You have got to eat, to keep your strength up......
Please, eat some protein, okay???

Will you do that???????

If your doctor suggests that you see someone to talk with; like a psychologist or psychiatrist...... please do so!!!
We can talk more about this privately.....

Losing a sweet furkid is very, very emotionally difficult!!!!!!
You know that, and I know that......

I know that you are a very, very wonderful person, Ann................and, I do love you...........
I love your husband, Clair............
You both are a wonderful pair!!!!
(you guys remind me of Ben & I).....

Always there for one another.....(whether it's a crisis, or otherwise).....
You know?????
You and Clair ARE ONE!!!!!!!!

God Bless You, Clair and your Children, Ann.............

I'm sending sooooooo many positive thoughts and love your way, my special friend!!!!

I am very, very concerned, but I know that you will be okay........ (with all of the love that you have from your family and your LS family!!)

God Bless You, and Be with you, Ann............

Peace, Good Health, Happiness & Much, Much Love!!!


Love Always, Denise & Ben xoxoxo

Ann,

I hope you are feeling better today and following the doctors orders. You need to get better. I know you miss your babies but you have to think of yourself now. Get well soon.

I am hoping for the best for you!

Nancy (Sasha's Mom)

Ann-
I have been so worried about your health.
I am so glad you will be taking a much needed rest.
You need to be well physically so you can heal emotionally.
Bless you and praying for your speedy recovery.
Your Clair and children are such dears. I know they will take the very best care of you and are probably grateful
you are taking some time to get well.
Love, Fran