I remember when I was very new to this site, someone posted that it had been 8 months since their beloved dog had died. I read that post and thought to myself how 8 months sounded like an unbearably long time.

How could the world go on for 8 whole months without my girl. I did not think that I would ever be at that spot. The author of the thread responded to me that I would get there, and that it would get easier. He was right.

Somehow I have moved into acceptance. Luba is no longer with me. I miss her terribly, and would give anything to have her back. But there is still good in this life. I am glad that I have opened my heart to it.

I still have trouble thinking of her without crying. She was a dear little dog.

Luba, if you are out there. I'm ok now. See you later.

I have always thought what a lovely picture it is of Luba ... her beautiful eyes, her head slightly ##ed to one side and such a wise, loving, gentle expression on her dear face.

Eight months in a way seems like an eternity, in a way seems like no time at all.

What will always be true is that your Luba was, and always will be a very special and darling furbaby.

With love
jilly

Oh Steph I'm sure Luba is so happy to see that her mama is going to be ok. Of course we know that it does not mean you will not be without tears and you will still always miss your baby. It does mean so much when we are able to find the strength to give the love that is in our hearts to others but we will never forget the ones who left us behind. In doing so we are able to find some joy in our lives. Your beautiful little girl is still there watching over you waiting for you to hold her when it is your time to leave this earth. I believe it with all my heart and soul. I bet Luba and Snookie are paying together even as we speak. Hugs and thanks for giving Falkor a kiss from me.
Love, Ann

Thank you Jilly. I appreciate your kind words a lot.

Dear Steph,
Thank you for sharing your post.
I see your acceptance as a hopeful sign.
You see, it's only been 5 weeks for me and today is a particualry tough day though I'm not sure why.
8 months does seem like an eternity. The fact that you have gotten there means that I will too.
Thanks for letting me know it will get easier.
love,
Fran

Thanks Ann, you have been a great comfort to me even though you have gone through so much loss yourself.

No doubt the furbabies are all doing well together, looking down at us and waiting to meet us when it is our time.

Fran, I think I was around 5 or 6 weeks when I saw the 8 month posting, so I guess you could say looking at you is like looking in a mirror. I am sorry about your loss. I'm glad that my words could encourage you.

Hi Steph,
Eight months! Time just keeps moving on...I also did not think I could ever get to a place that I could accept Moose not being with me. There was even a period of time I did not want things to get better....how could they...my baby was gone. I am still healing slowly...but healing. I still cant believe it has been 3 months, for some reason it seems much longer for me. I am glad to have shared this experience with you. Pamela

Hi Dear Steph,
I know what you mean. I can still remember sitting at my computer in my old apartment emailing you shortly after you made your first post. You and I went through a lot of this together. I am so glad you are doing well now. I too am finally doing much better -- only in this last week or so have I not thought of little Hannah Anna almost all the time. I can hardly believe it, and in one way it makes me sad, but things really JUST HAD TO GET BETTER, and they did. A heart can only take so much.

I know Luba is looking down on Mommy and Falkor, and very, very happy to see ya'll smiling once again. We learned so much goodness from our children, those precious little angels.

Take care,
Love,
Marcia

aww steph 8 months i also cant believe i have been here 6 months i looked for this on the next day! Luba is still a very good friend to you shes still in your heart!
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Pamela, Marcia and Jaymie (wow it's been a while since I saw you here Jaymie!),

Thank you guys for hanging in there with me over these past few months. Your furbabies are a part of my world now too.

Marcia, today I saw a little dog that reminded me of your Hannah so much. Pamela, I heard a man call his dog "Moose" a few weeks ago, and I stopped and though of you. And Jaymie, your Victor comes to mind when I see my neighbours' cat.

I'm glad that we are all doing so much better than we were all those months ago.

thanks for being there