My darling Snookie's urn finally came and it was more than I had ever hoped for. It has brought me some relief and comfort that she doesn't have to be in a tin can. I know her soul is not in there but I hated it that her ashes had to be in something so unfitting for her. I made a post some time back as to what it looks like. I will post a picture of it sometime later on I chose the antique nickle one, it is silver and black. It seemed fitting for the beautiful silver color she was.
I made a post in the tribute section I have been avoiding it as it made it so final for me, but it is final and I have to face it and continue to live without my little girl in my arms. Snookie is forever in my heart and soul and now the memories must carry me through this life and comfort me.
I guess I will have to make a tribute for my little fur grand baby Chili Bean too. Losing both girls so close together has been a hard thing to bear. Snookie and Chili Bean's love is also what helps me to live and love on and strive to heal.
Although I have many tears and much sorrow and a broken heart I would do it all over again. For without their love I would have missed out on so much joy in my life. I have had many blessings being loved completely and totally by both my girls. For every tear I have shed there was love, laughter and joy that was greater than each tear I have cried.
I give my bruised soul and my broken heart and both my girls to God to keep them safe and to help me heal until I can be with them again. I long for the day when once again I will hold them in my arms and feel their warm tongues upon my face and see their tails wagging as they run to greet me.
Ann