Esabella................
It will be two months tonight when Esabella went into respiratory arrest in Savannah, Georgia when we were on our way to Moms for Thanksgiving. Never thought it would happen like that. She was so happy and playful that morning. I still feel her pain as she suffered to breath as they put her on the respirator. The look in her eyes with love and pain still haunts me.
I sleep with her favorate toy every night. The face looks like Bella. Her pictures are everywhere and I talk to her, kissing her picture..................
I too, had a lot of guilt because I was moarning the death of my father when Esabella left my world. I adored my father, but the loss of Esabella was horrific, as well. Reading a recent post about a parent loss helped me. Thank you.
I am so thankful for the eight years I had with Esabella in my life and thank LS friends for helping me make it through the past two months.

You are alive in my heart............Esabella......................

Thinking of you and your dear Esabella at this two month mark. She is such a beautiful girl with her bright little eyes and sweet face.

Time is so strange after losing our furbabies, in a way it only seems like yesterday. In a way it seems like an eternity. I can't believe it is 7 whole weeks since my little Ellie died. I can't seem to fill in the space in between ... it's like I've been living in some kind of strange vacuum where nothing much has registered.

My thoughts are with you on this sad day.
with love
jilly

The anniversary of our loss is so hard.
My heart goes out to you on this the 8th week since losing your sweet Esabella.
On Tuesday it will be 4 weeks since Indy is gone.
Time is passing, yet for those of us mourning lost loves, it seems to stand still
Be well.
Fran

I am very sorry for your loss.

I am also in that same odd time vacuum. I am coming up on the 5th week mark
in a couple of days, and still catch myself looking for him in the house. Sometimes,
it seems he's been gone sooo long, and other times, I just can't believe it all.

Peaceful thoughts to you.

Oh you all, it has been 5 months for me and I still feel that time vacuum, you're right jillybromley, it is such a strange feeling. IT feels like it was all just yesterday and at the same time it feels like it's been an eternity and also feels like time has just stood still, all at the same time. It is the oddest feeling.

I am kind of forgetting how Jake looked, all his expressions, his sweet face and his wooooowooooo's... it's been so long since I've seen him. But at the same time I have flashs of memory where I can see him crystal clear, remembering how he used to lay on the couch next to my hus and paw him for pets, his happy face as he went out in the backyard.. this grief is so weird, it's like everything and nothingness all rolled into one.

Dear Litebrez,

Thinking of you on this sad 2 month anniversary of the loss of your beautiful Esabella.

Thinking of you also - j4lorn, hegelsmom, Fran and Jilly as you all approach these sad "anniversaries".

It does feel like we're in a time vacuum for sure. Sometimes it seems like forever since we've seen Rusty and other times, it's like he was just here. My husband said it feels like we're living "someone else's life", when we look into Rusty's favorite room and see the emptiness.

Thank goodness for LS and the wonderful people here.

Lynn

I am thinking of you and your sweet Esabella. I know how hard it is to lose them so quickly like you did Esabella and we did Chili Bean. Then there was little Snookie who lived 10 months after I found out she was so sick. Either way the pain is so heartbreaking and the loss just cuts into the soul. I sure appreciate all your post and e-mails to me and thank you for your kindness.
Ann

Dear Litebrez,

I think of you and little Esabella often. She was such a beautiful little girl.
Kathleen