How do i do this?...how do i find the words...taken so suddenly...today the "void" the HOLE i feel inside..i just can't stop balling like a baby...and i'm a 40 yr old man..musician..my aussie was named "Bflat".......i just don't know how to do this today...i miss him soooooooooooooooooo....only 8 yrs old...thought we "found" what the "problem" was...never knew he had tumors inside him..he just fell over 2 nights ago....i love you "boofy"..i'm so sorry.....dad will always think of US..you will never be "separated" from my heart...i wish i could just smell you one more time..kiss your soft big goofy nose...God.. i need you today..Bryan any support is appreciated..Tonythebeat@aol.com

:-( Bryan I am at the same spot you are. The only thing I can say is take one day at a time. You loved your wonderful dog, and he loves you. You did the best thing for him. Remember the good times and bad days will slowly heal

Bryan-I am so sorry about Bflat. You are right in knowing that you will never be separated from him in your heart and in your soul. Please do cry your heart out. It is so much better than trying to keep it inside. In time, the waterfall of tears will be slowly replaced by wonderful memories that make you and your heart smile. You will never stop wanting to smell his beautiful fur, but you will at some point meet him at the Rainbow Bridge and then you will smell him forever, never to lose him again. You found a wonderful place to share your feelings and stories if you wish. Everyone here feels your pain and sense of loss. Hugs to you.
Kimberly
***if I can only be with you in my dreams, I want to sleep forever***
Tay and Mama's boy I love you-thanks for the butterflies

We all understand your pain and share in your loss. My fellas left me at 8 years old too. It isn't long enough. I want more time. I know you do too.

It's funny how I never noticed the smell of my little fellas until the end. And now I miss it so much. Even my new little one has a soft, furry smell.

One day you'll get to kiss that big goofy nose again. Be patient and keep the memory alive until you do.

Hey you guys, you may be men but your humans first, and tears are part of the human make up, it’s an emotion we use to let out some of that grief so cry to your hearts content and remember that Bflat and Bud are worth every single tear.

I know these next few months are going to be hard, but hang on in there, it does get easier I promise.

Make up photo albums, or buy a little box to put little mementoes in like their collars.

Look for the signs that are trying to let you know that they are ok, when Jude went the light above her picture kept flashing, don’t say oh its just my imagination, they really do try to let you know they’re ok.

Take care
Love Sue

I had no idea yesterday about places like this...when i woke up i started balling..got on the PC and did a "search" on "pet loss"......funny what brings people together.....i appreciate all the response..kind words......Sue....ty for what you wrote..i caught myself all NIGHT last night "looking" for him...a "sign"..his "spirit/ghost"..something to let me know he's ok....sigh.....after seeing your post i know i'm not that nutty..hehe..so ty.......God i miss him....its sooo quiet around here.....i have to work tonight so maybe that will help...my wife and i are both musicians..hence the name "Bflat"....God bless you all...Bryan

The trouble is sometimes the signs are so small we miss them, sunlight shining through the window and landing on their picture, a sound coming from where they used to lay and we put it down to creaking floorboards.

I'm sorry I didn’t meant to make you go around all night looking for a sign, I guess they come when we least expect it, maybe even just in a dream but it will mean something to you.

I hope work went ok.
God bless you too

Sue

I am so sorry for your loss of Bflat....

Most of us have found that memorializing them helps so much. Its comforting I guess to make their earthly presence more permanent.... Since you are a musician, maybe you could maybe you could write a song about boofy....

Love,
Jennifer

Well i took this night off.....i needed the rest..the food..the water..all "the basics" grief has made me forget to do...in other words i'm a tired man..still very sad but not "as bad"..at least...i woke up today and told my wife "i think i had a dream about Bflat"...one of my problems is i don't remember much of, or ANY of my "dreams"..i do know this..I SAW HIM!...its was brief...thats all i know..in the dream he just "looked at me"..our faces kinda close..and i remember he looked "majestic"...his fur all combed..lol..i laugh because i don't think i ever had his hair looking THAT GOOD...lol...i hope its not just my mind messing with me...i was pretty "out of it" the last few days...anyhow...ty all for responding to my post.....i am just kinda "going thru the motions" in my life right now...this place is now very much part of how i am dealing with this..so GOD BLESS...i am grateful for that..peace..Bryan

Hey Bryan... You have been blessed by a dream of your baby. I have begged, borrowed and stole to have a dream about my fur babies. I think I try to hard to have a dream (although I asked my babies to send a butterfly as I was having them put to sleep and I see alot of butterflies even though it is November and very chilly here). I can not wait for the day I can dream of my babies. Hugs to you.
Kimberly
***if i can only be with you in my dreams, then i want to sleep forever***'
Tay and Mama's boy-thanks for the butterflies

Just where i'm at today.......did my usual "stretch" when waking up this morning in bed..you know...what everyone does...reaching your arms out as far as you can..legs..big YAWN..and then i "remembered"..every morning when i did that Bflat would be in my face by the time i opened my eyes from that "yawn"...panting/excited i was getting UP..i missed that today..i miss you boofy...all the other animals have "shifted" in their usual behavior too....subtle but its obvious something is missing..everyone is different..again thanks for letting me share here...i feel heavy today..God bless..Bryan