My husband and I will be leaving in a half hour to make the 160 mile round trip to get our sweet precious Snookie. I don't know what to expect when I see her in the urn and I reach out to take it in my hands. I just wish it was Snookie alive and healthy that I was reaching out to embrace.

I am so devastated and am a broken woman since I lost my little girl. I feel so overwrought that I will not be taking her in my arms as I have done for so many wonderful love filled years. My baby brought unspeakable joy into my life, my heart was always so filled with love and now I feel so empty.

If not for my husband and children I don't know how I could ever recover from the loss of Snookie My Love. I would say come on My Love do you want to go with Mama. Do you want out My Love Mama will go out with you. Its time for us to go to bed My Love, you and Mama are so tired. I called Snookie My Love so much plus I called her Pumpkin Pie a lot too she may have thought her name was My Love or Pumpkin Pie.

We was so blessed last night our son, 1 of our daughters, and 1 grand daughter spent the night with Clair and me to comfort us. I had some fur grand babies with me and they all seemed to know that something was different and they were all more loving than usual too.

Now we must go face one of the hardest things we have ever had to do. I will write later tonight if I am able to. I just feel so very sick and slept for maybe an hour. My husband Clair has only slept a few hours but if we get to tired we will stop and rest.
Ann

Be safe, I know that the weather has been bad across the country. Just remember that snookie is with you in spirit, and the ashes are just a symbol of her. Snookies spirit is all around you and with you where ever you go.

Kim

Dear Ann,

Be safe. I will not tell you to be strong, as there is no amount of strength that can prepare you for this most difficult chore you must undertake today. Good luck. G-d bless you and yours and look at it as if you are going to bring Snookie home with you one last time, never to have her feel pain and anguish again. Her loving spirit will be there with you to help guide you through these most difficult days.

The one thing that I do not think that I will be able to reconcile is that although my Klaus is gone and already cremated, that the hole that has been left behind will always remain. It seems easier to get over the loss of a person. One does not ever seem to be able to get over the loss of one of our precious babies.

I am soooo sorry for your loss. As I sit here and type with tears streaming down my face, please know you are in my thoughts.

Brett

Dear Ann,

All week I've been thinking about you going to pick up Snookie's ashes. I was sorry that the weather kept you home yesterday. Please be safe as you make the long journey today.

We'll be here tonight to listen if you feel like sharing your feelings about bringing Snookie home. When I brought Dolly's ashes home, I felt a sense of comfort in having her home. But with Shiloh it was different. I didn't want Shiloh's ashes, I wanted a happy and healthy Shiloh. It's hard to know what your feelings will be...please know we'll all be here for you to support you how ever you need it.

My thoughts are with you today.
Love,
Kathleen

Ann,

I'm glad the weather cleared up enough for you and Clair to make the trip to bring Snookie home. Please be safe, and like others said we will all be here if you need us tonight.

Kristie

Wishing you safe passage Ann, as your bring your girl home.

Dear Ann and Clair,

Thinking of you both tonight as you make that long journey.

Love,

Lynn